Latest news!

You are all very patient – I wish I was better at making regular updates!

Things are still moving along and are starting to speed up now that I have found an editor to work with 🙂 Its really great to find a creative queer positive editor with lots of ideas who can assist my techno-failure self with putting the pieces together! So important. So there should hopefully be a trailer or rough cut of some sort appearing soon!

I produced a small fat positive cabaret in Berlin recently, and it was really well recieved which made me feel great!! I am once again fully convinced of the power of performance when it comes to activism, particularly activism that is focused on the body. I performed my ‘Public Stretchmark Announcement’ piece, which I also talk about in my chapter in Virgie Tovar’s new fat positive anthology, ‘Hot and Heavy’, which is coming out in Novemeber. Many, many of the inspiring women who wrote for this anthology are also in the film or are performers. Great stuff. Here is a link to find out more:

Something else that you can do is ‘like’ our facebook page, if you have a facebook account! I can’t figure out how to do the ‘button’ thing (what did I say about being a techno failure?) but here is a link which might work: Go Big or Go Home Facebook Page

or search for ‘Go Big or Go Home’ film 🙂

More news coming soon!



modern technology saves the day – skype interviews & more!

Since this film is a self-funded project (so far), I have been very lucky to do the amount of travelling that I have! However, there is currently no money left for further trips across the Atlantic, so I’ve been exploring other options. I met a lot of amazing performers at NoLose 2010 and Flabulous 2 & the 2010 Femme Conference (all in San Francisco/Oakland) and I was lucky enough to meet and interview Glenn Marla this summer in NYC. But there are still so many others I have yet to meet and who are on my interview wishlist, including but not limited to: Hana Malia, Cherry Tart, Ginger Snapz, Juicy D. Light, Pigeon Von Tramp, Dottie Lux and many others! Fortunately now that news of the film is starting to spread, fat identified performers emerging from all over! Still hoping for more from europe too…..come on lovelies, don’t be shy!

This week I have already interviewed the fabulous Virgie Tovar, whose bio and info will be up soon (along with others) and I also have interview dates planned with Cherry Tart and Natalie Rose. Even though not all of the interviews will appear in the film (it wouldn’t be possible, since the film wouldn’t be long enough) nothing will be wasted. I really value everyone’s time and energy investments and what doesn’t appear in the film will be uploaded as part of the fat performer online archive I plan to create. If I get a wriggle on with the editing process, some should appear on the blog soon also!

Goldie xxx

Autumn 2011

Latest developments

I was thinking recently how much I would love to have more time to devote to this project. The trouble with being an independent, small scale film maker is that you’re usually balancing your project with various other jobs and commitments, including university in my case. It can mean that there is often not enough time and things end up being reluctantly shelved and taking longer than planned. Sad.

My solution for this was to figure out a way that working on Go Big or Go Home can be incorporated into my MA program. Fortunately I have cooperative tutors, which means I am currently working on the project full-time for the next couple of months instead of doing a formal internship. This is great news at it means I have the time and space and resources available to me to start making real progress.

So! My new plans for the project are this: firstly, I want to make this website more of a resource for the fat performance community and those who love us. I also want there to be a way to include as many performers as possible, as there are so many great ones and it’s not possible for them all to be in the film itself. So I am going to start having an interview section where I interview fat performers about their projects and visions. If you are interested in being interviewed, please get in touch! I eventually want to create an archive project out of this, along with a film. So much has to be edited out when created a film and its a shame to waste the material and people’s contribution. My hope is that this will be a way around this 🙂

Secondly: I’m continuing in my quest to find more fat identified performers in Europe! I know you’re out there 🙂 I really want more european representation in the film and in the rest of the project. Please get in touch if you’re interested or hook me up with folks you think might be interested. Thanks 🙂

Thirdly: third on the list is editing, editing, editing! That’s the biggest, most time-consuming job.

xxx Goldie


Latest news from summer 2011

This summer I was lucky enough to head to the states for a second time, this time stopping in New York to interview the fabulous GLENN MARLA who I’m really happy to have as a part of the project.

I also got a chance to work on this website with Damian Luxe, which is why it looks so fab, and changed the name of this project to Go Big or Go Home after a conversation with performer Alysia Angel…I love this expression! It totally fits.

From this point on I am looking closer to home for contributors and would really like to hear from some queer fat-identified performers in Europe! I’m happy to say that I already have an interview with the lovely Charlotte Cooper, and I hope to have a chance at some point to film her’s and Kay Hyatt’s latest band Homosexual Death Drive in action!

If you are interested in being interviewed or can recommend someone to me, please get in touch at goldiedartmouth @


The Story So Far…

Documentary film making, queer fat femme style!

I visited the states in summer 2010 to attend two conferences and begin interviewing for this film. I was lucky enough to go to both NoLose (the conference for queer women and trans folks and their allies) and also the Femme Conference, which was epic and and amazing experience. Through these two conferences I met many of the people who feature in this film and was able to interview them, see them perform and in some cases was lucky enough to share cocktails and bathtubs with them! As mentioned in the treatment, this project is largely inspired by the late, great Heather Macallister and I’m very grateful to all who shared their memories of her with me, particularly Sossity.

I returned to Berlin with about 15 tapes full of material and have since been struggling with the epic task of putting it all together! I hope to find an experienced editor to work with, but for the time being I’m putting a rough cut together myself.

The project is far from being done yet and I’m still searching out new performers and contributors to create as full a picture as possible 🙂 In the meantime, stay tuned and I welcome all support, suggestions and encouragement.